Deep thinking spans little resemblance 

To long blond hair in my eyes

Sogged wet and dark as I cry

 And time is aching for such burden

 But I wont let exigency lead

Curling quietly in murmurous ball

Spewing saliva mixed with salt

Tensing muscles of regulated flesh

Back and forth and transfer torch

 Mind to body

  Soul to heart

I need not taste this reminder on my lips

 She kneels down in her own pain

I need not dizzy with throw-up and wisp

 Only of  handfuls' hurting I am

Keeping myself busy and tailored from

The world round I hide witness to

And pull together my daily life

 Cold masked and dripping fear

Among sanitary faces 

 They cover with shade

  Their real lives fall away

Paltry is their pain down

Plotted as their placid wake

Please find and free my pull

 And let the fuckers fake

For once for my emotional sake

There is nothing else more I need right now

But to let myself go