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By RainbowChaser Date: 2002 Sep 07 Comment on this Work [[2002.09.07.12.23.26418]] |
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Pain consumes my very soul I try to hide, try to cope, try to deal But pain keeps coming back and reminding me of all that I stand to lose It reminds me that my dreams can so easily be shattered I'm so vulnerable, so lonely, so confused What if my dreams will never be reached? What if all that I dream never fully becomes reality I know that I will be crushed if that is to be the case I have no effective way to deal with my pain Pain used to dissolve when I would force food into my mouth and then with a skillful finger trace the line to the back of my throat and up would come all the bottled up emotions But I fell in love with someone who kept me from all that He showed me the value of love without judgment He cherished my heart, my soul, and my smile And relished in the human qualities of my body I am not perfect, I know this, but just once I would like to try I want to know my destiny, I want to know that I will be happy in the end I have friends who love me, but I can't let them in I have concerns, but I can't voice them, what if I lose the people I care about You know life is going to work out everything that I have prayed for thus far is looking up My biggest concern of the whole year has turned around..what I was worried about didn't come to pass at all. I'm learning how much people love me I am going to learn to love myself Life is hard right now, especially when the person you love moves so far away but I am going to give it time, and I'm going to be happy this year I have 8 months until I can pursue a dream of mine Until then, I wait and pray that everything will fall into place the past two months I have grown, but not without pain and doubt. I wanted to know what would happen, now I know it's better to be patient but i know that for everything there is a season and a purpose under heaven, I just wait to find out what it is |