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By galadrial Date: 2002 Sep 21 Comment on this Work [[2002.09.21.17.32.13094]] |
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Dear Charles, In a few weeks, we'll be married for 15 years. Together for 22. Last year i asked you for a divorce. I stayed. A few weeks ago, you said i stayed...but that i really hadn't come back to you. I guess that is true. I never was about asking---mostly because i hate rejection...so i never wanted to hear no. Before i was a mom, i had time and patience, and i could afford emtionally to ask for less. Life hadn't fucked with me much---though i thought it did then...the real fun was still coming,but what did i know? I knew that i loved you...so what if you weren't the type to express it...so what if i love you was hard...and you weren't overfond of kissing...I was a talker. Always had stuff to say. Only i never said what i needed. Twenty two years is a long time to not ask.And a few times i tried...but before you did a thing, you told me i was asking too much...that you shouldn't have to make up for what you didn't do yesterday. Well i say that's a cop out. I say that's giving up before you tried. I say that's saying to me that you really don't care to bother. Now ask me again why i never came all the way back to you. I think we both have our answer, don't you? |