By freakinsecret
Date: 2002 Sep 24
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[[2002.09.24.21.52.18746]]

re-evaluation

okay
i've thought about it.
and i think maybe i need a vacation from people after all.
who knows, what exactly is wrong with me,
but i dont feel like sorting it out right now.
i'm just gonna work and read and make things and get high
and not worry about who is talking to who
and who was friends first and
who is fucking who and
who might be IMing me under assumed names and
how i have to keep some things from some people
and worry about what other people aren't telling me.
i won't have to feel obligated to pour my heart out
just to get a reaction from someone,
and i wont have to worry about accepting random unwanted gifts
from strangers that i dont really like.
i won't be upset because i dont understand people and never will.
better to have loved and lost my ass.
i dont even see why i bothered.
i know that i wear people out.
i know that everyone gets tired of me after a while.
i know that i get tired of people even faster than they do me.
im amazed i managed to hold onto this set of people for
this fucking long.