By Chances are
Date: 2002 Dec 06
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Stalemate

If I'm right and you're wrong
Or you're wrong and I'm right
Perhaps I'm content
To chase you around your chessboard
Black Queen vrs White King
If I could corner you on the right move
But you won't go there
You think our game's forever

I'm not torn in two directions
Anymore than you are
You decided when you said
I was just your flatmate
And now she's here
You had to tell her I'm not
A child besides
Made it easy to decide

She must hate you
Nearly as much as I do
They say the two emotions
Are not dissimilar
You say it doesn't matter now
Because you've decided
But if a friend didn't tell me
You had lied...

If you didn't tell me then
I would've heard it from her
Not only was your crime neglect
But countless years of lies
While I nurtured the life
That grew inside
The result of a perfect night
Only once in a million

I knew that we had done it
That we'd created life
Even though at that moment
I wasn't sure and didn't want to
The life grew so strongly
And shone the moment of truth
I wanted to share the growing
You wanted to chat on ICQ

I thought at least you were
Sharing your feelings with someone
But your feelings were
Your infatuation with yourself
It took me to go mad
To pack my bags and walk out the door
For you to make the change
To preserve yourself

You said you'd keep the house
You said you'd keep the car
You told me that you'd
Keep the child until you saw
That I didn't care
Ever again or anymore
So you made some promises

And I ask myself over again
Can I take this seriously?
Can I do it all again?
Can I do it meaningfully?
You said she was all a fantasy
And now I'll let you keep yours
That I'm here because I love you
Now and forever more