By Chances are
Date: 2002 Dec 13
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To the Man I Wish I'd Married

When my husband and I first started to play
I saw you in the foyer after church on Sunday
You looked like you knew me and I felt the fact
We were leaving, we left, I didn't go back

Now at church rarely I'm reminded fittingly
Of forgiveness, pure love and chastity
Because they're all something to do with how
I feel about you: then, there and now

We met up again when we were both married
Only a year on, still onward we carried
We were both young and lately I think
Seeing you again, I could've worn pink

Because nothing's changed yet nothing's the same
And we grow older and our hearts tire and wane
I can see you're still loyal which gives me courage
Even if it's only just to simply manage

And I still find it hard to be long in your eye
Without having wicked thoughts glean and fire
And I resisted so hard getting to know you
You're a shy boy and I'm a shy girl too

Yet you made the effort and so in my deafness
I challenged you in purity for your wickedness
I teased you when I knew you were trying
In an psyche you out way, my heart denying

And then when that defense faded I turned
And tried to make someone else the hotly spurned
You're far too good, you're absolutely the best
Without even trying you surpassed the rest

Because that lump in my heart, breast and throat
I could never know well enough to fight rote
And it never ever quite fades for long enough
Until I see you, and I'm again lost in the rough