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By Daniela Date: 2002 Dec 15 Comment on this Work [[2002.12.15.02.10.1975]] |
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I know what you'll say as your eyes pop out: "I can't believe you sometimes" Then, the look of disappointement "You amaze me with what you're thinking sometimes... where does it all come from? You're wrong! Do you know that?" Then, the look of disappointement again All I can say is: "Sometimes we choose a topic to discuss something else. Sometimes I don't really mean every word for face value, but I use the topic to open up the discussion to something we left behind and ignored. The point is this: I accept you the way you are, even if you aren't that way, and I know you were hurt and I'm sorry. It was just my way of saying I know now and forever that I was wrong to behave the way I did, to say what I said, and to just act moronic." All you can say is: "And that's your explanation? It doesn't make sense." All I can say is: "Just as love may not always make sense, us humans don't always make sense in why we do and say the things we do... It's just a process of learning and hopefully, improving ourselves." And I see you look at your hands And I see you look up And I see you get up and walk away And all I can think, just as I thought then, is: "I'm an open person. I say what I think, and the point is that I am learning how to hold some things back for the better good. But still, maybe there is a good reason why I said and say all the things that I said and say? Maybe I just can't know why, but still, there may be a better good reason why I open such topics for discussion, for thinking, for working-out and understanding. Still." And you will probably think something like: "Keep working on it." And I'll think: "Yes. I am. Thanks." |