By Chances are
Date: 2002 Dec 18
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Washed out (Revised)

Here I am, on my own and yet
Still with him, 'cause I can't forget
The ring spells out the start it purchased
The lies are told and truth emerges
What I thought was right was wrong
I couldn't do what I thought I could do
What everyone thought was right and wrong
Are you confused?

The promises don't matter anymore
Nobody else keeps them, for sure
Sick of being dragged through the grit
Looking for the golden truth in a sea of shit
With a brass snorkel - he aims by stealth
A guarantee of precious self-assurance
A two-headed monster jealously guarding himself
With a woman of chances

Make you a deal - well, do you care?
I'll be this, you be that, we can share
Look no further than an instant, please
Forget your past, non-identity, false memory
Forget your future, stupid hopes, ridiculous dreams
Here's a world you won't forget, the bright
Silver star shooting past a red moon, it seems
The aquamarine water is black at night

The waves in the ocean are comforting
Oh, for them to wash over me, cleansing
They kill the reflections on the water
Tonight - that night - no keeping order
The bag that holds my wedding dress
Still filthy with a torn hem to anoint
Another costume, anyway, confess
No credit to repair it, no point

Get in and come for a spin
Do everything; you thought you'd win
Life's nothing like the promises shout
Let your precious idealism be spun out
In a hedonistic world of sex
Do it now. Can you do it? Live the lies?
Are you just like everyone you expect?
Are you relieved? Are you so surprised?

You yearned for him from the first moment
You ever saw him, wanted him, a lament
Because you hoped he would want you too
But he couldn't, wouldn't, shouldn't do
He lied
He lost
He lived
He won