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By carol Date: 2003 Jan 09 Comment on this Work [[2003.01.09.16.46.9852]] |
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is it a sign of weakness?? is it the wrong way out? should i chose a new release? find a new way of coping.. does the blood really bring me closure? or is it all in my head do the cuts and burns, really help my emotion? or cause a new pain.. one not so deep but liveable, and see able one that i can really put a band-ade over. cover up and forget it heals all on its own much unlike my dameged soul. i call out for the blood sometimes.. because ITS A PAIN I CAN CoNTROL the one thing in my life i have power over cut.. not cut bleeding. or not bleeding. how much it hurts. but how deep the cut. i get to have a say for once! i can decide what to feel!! ME i get to say!!! no one else get to say.. well she aint good anough.. and hurt me i decide to feel everything or nothing at all. and that power is hard to give up, but now u have to decide to hurt me or not. u decide to hurt me u have my heart and soul u get to chose what hapens to me dont abuse that power like i once did dont do as everyone else has done chose to hold me. love me b/c i dont know if i can take anouther cut. |