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By Lulu Date: 2003 Feb 06 Comment on this Work [[2003.02.06.18.49.29804]] |
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I dont know how to tell you, that I will always let you down. I dont know how to say that I have never had someone to actually care. I dont know how to explain that I dont mean to push any one away, and when I push you away, it really doesnt have anything to do with you being you. I dont know how to express to you how hard I try and how much of me you dont see. I dont know how to say that sometimes I dont even know the real me. I dont know how to stop from being offensive and stop from shutting out your ideas(im having trouble now). I dont know how to stop shoving people away from me, stop excluding all of my friends from me. I dont know how to say that I have never had someone that can say they knew me to the bone. I dont know how to tell you that when I ever express myself to anyone at all I beat myself up. I dont know how to say that everytime I cry to someone I tell myself to stop being such a candy ass. I dont know how to let you, to open up, tell you things. I just dont know how. |