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By Mysteriousone07 Date: 2003 Feb 18 Comment on this Work [[2003.02.18.15.44.21682]] |
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Dear Diary, As I sit here thinking of the love I feel for someone I just can't seem to help myself. All I want is for him to know and realize he's the only one I need. The only one that could make me the happiest girl. The one who will take my fear away forever. Somehow, I doubt that this will ever happen. I think of our moments together. Times when he makes me laugh, times we shared together and those moments when he made me smile everyday of my life. Wishing that I could be wrapped around his arms, slow dance under the moonlight and the shining stars. Wondering how it feels like to hold him once again. Moments where I could be beside him, looking into his scintillating eyes and having a conversation. His voice I hear that makes my heart go crazy, my eyes focus onto his charming face. The smile I see each and everyday. As I wake up in the morning I have a smile on my face. Thinking of him constantly and all through the day. What is it that makes me act so carelessly. Is it love? Is it just a mere emotion trying to play with my heart? I must understand. It must be love since everytime one mention of that name my heart beats faster, my face glows. I could never give my heart to nobody else except for him. Now why is that? Am I a fool for loving only one person and that one whom does not feel the same way as I do? Maybe so? I just can't seem to let him go. Memories of him makes up my life. The day I laid eyes on him I knew I'd fall for him. What am I thinking? I am thinking that I will always love him and my love will never die whether it'd be me being alone for the rest of my life or being with another. NO it's not like I will be with someone and not love that person. It's difficult to explain. I just can't seem to know exactly why. Dear Diary, What am I supposed to do if I can't be with him? Where will I turn to? And when I see him with someone else all I could say is "I'm glad for you" yet I know it will hurt me terribly BUT the friendship we have won't be changed in any way. It's hard to explain of how I truly feel. I try to figure them out but it all comes down to this. As I sit here thinking, my heart keeps telling to never stop and forget of how I feel. If he doesn't feel the same that is alright with me--REALLY. I just don't think I could ever love again--What I meant by that is I could never love someone the way I do with him. All I know is I will always love him. ????? |