By Jon
Date: 2003 Feb 20
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Reasons Part 6

Over my lifetime I've used some pretty lame breakup excuses. However, I've never used the excuse of "I need to find myself." Honestly I think that is the absolute worst excuse any person can give for breaking up with someone. You need to find yourself? You mean you weren't yourself with me? If you never knew who you were to begin with then did you really love me? Please. Why can't they just say, "Yeah, I want to explore my options."

A little over a year later that is exactly what Lynda told me. Apparently she didn't know who she was and she needed to go "find herself." I found out a few months later that she "found herself" eight different times with eight different guys...that I knew of.

Yeah, I was heartbroken. I wrote some of the saddest stuff during that period. I dated around and never let anyone in too close. I was sad, but I never showed it. You wouldn't be able to tell because I smiled all the time. I was one of those people that seem to never have any problems, but end up having the most. I had plenty of other problems to deal with, but we're talking about my romantic history here so I'll leave that stuff out.

But if there is a God he/she took mercy on me.