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By lovestruk Date: 2003 Feb 27 Comment on this Work [[2003.02.27.05.43.3441]] |
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On the way to Virginia, I sit in the back seat.. Not noticing anyone in the car. They listen to their country music, And are all happy-go-lucky. My sister with her book, dancing like a maniac... And my mom just enjoying it all. But can they tell I don't want to be here? I had a terrible day..and watching them makes me sick. They notice everything around us, the trees, the cars, and the people... But they seem to not know that I am here, Not engaging me in their conversations, Acting as if I don't exist. Am I depressed? Or is it just a bad day? But I feel like this everyday. I'm sick of feeling unwanted, like the "misfit" of the family.....the weird one. And then I think of "him" The best thing to ever happen to me-Bryce. I wonder what he's doing, what he's wearing, what he smells like, and what he's thinking about. You are what keeps me alive and strong. The one who knows me best. We've been through all my personalities..... Happiness, depression, suicidal, anger, anxiety, and so many more. I stare off and remember how much you love me. And that you are all I care about. You save me from myself everyday..Your voice just gets to me. I hang on to every word you say. And I love you so much for that........ For making me want to forget all the bad things. The "old" me. I love your support and your determination to help me overcome any obstacle. As I look at your initials on my ankle, I realize I wouldn't want anyone esle's name there. I don't care if they say we won't make it, I know we will...we have it in us. F*ck them, they don't know how lucky we are to have each other.....they just don't understand. And I honestly don't care if they do or not. Because I have you and that is all the reassurance I need. I want to get away from here. I want to runaway wiht you..... I'm in love with you...I'd follow you anywhere. Now they try to be nice & please me...it just isn't good enough. I love you Bryce!!! Feb. 26 |