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By Mysteriousone07 Date: 2003 Mar 11 Comment on this Work [[2003.03.11.17.45.26289]] |
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Through my pain I still am sane All are lost But nothing gained Since then I was lost Knowing now you are Just another ghost Though I know you are with me My accomplishment you can see I know you are proud as you can be Towards me But losing you Part of me is now empty Seems to affect me emotionally To feel the love you had for me The day I learned you were gone Started the misery I live in now Everyday of my life I would sit and wonder why Most of the time I am left to cry Then they tell me to forget As if nothing happened That's what I regret I questioned many things But comes back with answers That stings Where I have no say I live my life in a painful way Yet put a fake smile every day Left in a room where I stay Peace and harmony and where I pray Growing up was difficult My accomplishments weren't good enough I think that's rough Attention I seek for Was done by acting and doing Irrational things Do something that WILL get their attention By getting them To see the good things I have put Effort on I am the way I am Because they made me The way I am For it hurts and my pain rise But they don't know I got nothing BUT love for my family Yet they seem not to understand And seem to push away All I want is there love Though I know they love me But I don't feel it So I had the decency to give up Since the effort I've laid out Wasn't going anywhere My heart is bitter Especially when it comes to love And definitely towards guys I know exactly why But and exception with this one guy I've showed my love in many ways Yet I end up wounded And not understood Only wish that my dad were here What will I do now? I have my friends But it's just not the same But I will be grateful for them I guess have to try again somehow Like what Linkin' Park had said: What do I do to ignore them behind me? Do I follow my instinct blindly? Do I hide my pride from these bad dreams? And give in the sad thoughts and the maddening? Do I sit here and try to stand it? I can't hold on It's too much to take in I CAN'T RELY ON MYSELF Where I have anger, disgust, And Sadness and PAIN I want them to understand I will never turn my back I will come back and repay them For the love, the care they've given me Show them I do understand Show them I'm not the kid They believe I am Show them the pain I'm feeling For the pain they feel as well The lost of my dad, their son, and brother I long to express But how can I? For I don't have the strength I only seek for their love For I already know they do Their attention not from my screw up But for the same attention That HE gets Pressure I feel and the pain I always end up with I long to release The sorrow for I must erase For I only reach for that love Love I could hold forever Regain the love I once had And cure this wounded heart |