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By Lulu Date: 2003 Mar 26 Comment on this Work [[2003.03.26.18.17.3368]] |
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Ok. This is it. I'm not faking any more. I have never been so true with myself, and I have never been so raw with my feelings. I'm sick of holding this in, And I'm sick of wondering. After some advice from a friend..This is what I need to say. I'm not holding anything back, I'm sorry if this scares you away, but I need to say it. After you read this I want to know how you feel about me. You make me feel ok..no, you make me feel great. If your around I feel complete. I find myself wishing I was around you, because of the how amazing you make me feel. I want to be so close to you it scares me. I trust you so much I'm afraid to trust my own judgment. I want to tell you everything and even more. I want to know everything about you. I want to be there when you need someone. I want to call you when I'm upset and be ok with it. I'm pulling myself away from you, because I'm so afraid you will turn out like the others. I'm sick of being depressed. I believe you can stop my depression. You make me want to be a better person. You make me want to be everything you need. You make me want to deserve you. I am paranoid right now...Im scared of how open I am being with you...but I refuse to stop. I would lay under a endless pile of freshly sharpened knives forever, If It would keep me from hurting you. I am in a hell right now. I am alone..but its because I'm too afraid to do anything about it. I'm sick of being alone. I will help you through everything and anything if you will let me. You said you cared, You said you would be there, You said you want me to be open with you. Prove it. |