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By Joleen Toomey Submitted by pierced_seduction Date: 2003 Mar 31 Comment on this Work [[2003.03.31.21.17.1441]] |
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Empty Out of the depths of her soul came the soft whimpering that could only be discribed as that of a abandoned child.. left to find her way threw this harsh world with only herself for companyonship..and threw her younger years this whimpering was a constant reminder to her that she was not complete.... As the years crawled by and the world around her continued to grow and flurish she was able to muffle the whimpeings of her soul by pretending she belonged in this harsh world that consummed the very souls of those living within it. Yet her life seemed to be that of tranquility to those whom sought not to look deeper ... the husband ... the children... the career.... why should they or her for that matter believe anything missing in her life. Then one night.. late while all the world around her slept peacefuly snuggled within there beds..... the once soft whimpering began to reach out to her...... the softness growing into cries deep within her own soul,, asking her questions she did not have the answers for .. the torture of her soul continued into the early morning hours when she creep from the warth of her own bed and found herself stairing blankly into the mirror at the empiness in the eyes that staired back at her..... and then just as tears began to stream down the face in the mirror she knew................... she knew that she was living a lie and that she no longer knew who she was or for what pupose she lived. From that day on she lived a life that was not her own... she was drivin to act upon every whim that crossed threw her mind without reguard for anyone's feelings or even the risk to herself... Month after month of searching in the darkest of places this world had to offer the nameless and faceless she grew tired of the battle within her own soul... she grew tired of the face in the mirror with the emptyness so deep... how could she find her inner peace.... where could it be... she had searched long and hard ,, looking for what would fill those eyes and drown out the cries from her soul...at the cost of those closest to her.... yet she continued this way despite the heartache it brought to those she loved.... Finially!!!!!!!!! it had been a longggggg journey but midway threw the journey she sank to the floor in a strange bathroom and cried for those she had left behind days before... promising them and herself this was the end.... one or another she would return to them and never again would she tear at there hearts in search for herself...... Threw all these months of tears and uncertanty and searching.. it was always right there under her nose... Her Family was the key... she had but to open herself to there love and not shield herself from them...... |