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By newfoundlove Date: 2003 Apr 16 Comment on this Work [[2003.04.16.13.29.15593]] |
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came home early today thinking i could get my head together that maybe being home alone with no noise no interuptions no nothing that i could think better that maybe i could get my thoughts straight but it dident work the only thing i got was more confused and once again u werent there to help to calm my breathing to make me stand up turn on the light and walk so i laid there cryed TRYED to breath screamed at god and i dont even reamber what i said to him why werent u there? WHY NOT??? U NEVER ARE!! U HAENT BEEN FOR A WHILE and once again u were not there i know u couldent help it but it makes me wonder how often u wont be there next time i need u will u be there? no you wont.. u never will be so i guess that means i need to learn to stand up on my own walk around turn on the light and stop yelling at god so that next time u "cant" be there i will be ok anywayz |