By carol
Date: 2003 Apr 17
Comment on this Work
[[2003.04.17.18.25.10810]]

afraid

i took it off like i said i would
then once i got out
i put more on
ten times more this time
i couldent even let my own family see ME

what am i so afraid will be seen?
WHAT AM I HIDEING?!?!?!?!?!?!
i cant figure it out!!
i dont get it
nothing about my face has changed in the past 4 days
so why do i now
find it so hard to look at myself
and why cant i let anyone see behind the makeup?
what am i ashamed of?

WHAT??