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By wiltedrose Date: 2003 Apr 23 Comment on this Work [[2003.04.23.17.21.27211]] |
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i wrote u a letter today found that i couldent send it so i threw it away layed on the floor and cryed i dont know why but i wanted to die i wanted to close my eyes not have to awake not have to live not another fucking day not another heart ach no more tears to cry i'm liveing in so many lies i cant face the sun i cant live another day why does smileing hurt? why does laughing make me feel like a fake? why do i have to alwayz cover my face? hideing behind mascara behind foundation and powder behind the closes that take away from my face behind the hair behind the glits and glamer they all think i have it good that i live like i want but i dream of the past all the time i cant find a future and i want to forget the past this dosent make sence to me i should be happy i should be glad but i cant find even anough strenth to frown i feel week powerless no longer in controle no more can i find the power i cant bleed he rufuses to let me so i will lay here and cry and only hope to die |