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By Mysteriousone07 Date: 2003 May 08 Comment on this Work [[2003.05.08.21.58.5776]] |
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Today he told her that he RACES. He had raced twice before yet she didn't know. Of course, she wouldn't have known because they didn't know each other before. However, now they are together she wouldn't allow it. If he RACE one more time in any way--Legal, Illegal--basically any type of car racing that involves putting his life to risk or in the line is not allowed by her. She would definitely leave him if he does. She feels really SORRY and bad that she's taking away one of the things he likes to do BUT she knows deep inside that she's only doing this for the best of them. She feels that she's a controlling bitch and she doesn't want to seem that way yet she thinks that she is. However, she knows that she's being like the way she is BECAUSE she doesn't want to lose him in any way. She doesn't want to lose another person that is very CLOSE to her and she knows it'll hurt her so. Also, she hasn't been and had a kind of relationship like this one. She cares for him so much and too much, just like the way he is with her. She loves him A LOT and WILL SUPPORT him on his decision BUT car racing isn't one of them. She'd kill herself first before he does. Heck, she'd leave and kill herself before he even step into a car and go off and race without her knowing it or even think of racing. She is very concern of him. She doesn't want to lose him like she had once lost a very close person. She just doesn't want him to put his life on the line where he is looking for it to happen. AND knowing her, she wouldn't want him to WAIT FOR IT TO HAPPEN. Yes, he will keep on racing because THAT'S WHAT HE LIKES TO DO and nothing has happened YET. She does not want him to keep on doing it EVER for IT COULD ACTUALLY HAPPEN, that she would not WANT him to WAIT for it to actually happen and then he'll stop. But what IF it DID happen? What is she to do? What is she left with? How is she going to be in the end? How is she going to live her life all over again? TELL HER HOW!! She does not want him to keep on doing it and when it does come he would REALIZE in the end that he shouldn't HAVE done it. That once it happened what then? She does not want him to go after and WAIT for it to actually happen. So, she is asking him to stop before it DOES. It would hurt her in so many ways. She feels miserable for taking that away from him. She does not want anything happened to him NOW or LATER in life. She wants to take care of him and him AROUND for a long time. She does not want to lose him. She just does what is best for him. Yet it hurts her for taking it away from him. She just can not live her life knowing that he's not around one of these days. She just CAN NOT!!! She would not live and be the same. So he must understand. She feels sorry and apologize for not letting him. For limiting what he can and cannot do. She truly is. She just wants him to understand that she will not let anything happen to him AND can not take it if something did happen to him. So she is stopping it from happening by asking him not to RACE. Please understand. |