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By sunburst627 Date: 2003 May 29 Comment on this Work [[2003.05.29.11.16.14803]] |
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I wish it would go away really... why does it all come back to me... just standing in your presence for a few minutes and I feel it again. I really wish I didn't feel anything at all. Its easier when so many days go by and there's no sight of you - no thought - I can just forget it all. Go back to my cold life... stay there and smile and act like it doesn't hurt to stand on the sidelines and meet the children's needs and have so many needs locked away... maybe never to be met. And I do forget it all...until you look at me that way. I can stay isolated and be amused by life until I feel your breath so close to mine. It didn't start as a physical attraction; there was always something deeper. Maybe not deep enough to build forever on, but deeper than just your warm skin near mine. I wouldn't feel a reaction to you if it were just about scratching an itch. So I guess I wonder if you feel it too?... if standing near to me makes your body quake just a bit - quake with memory and even hope? I expect nothing...I don't even expect to feel this way. I know you have a world that demands you and what I saw in you is buried away. You are protected by your demands and the protocol of this place. And I am perched in this chair with a reputation for propriety. It is unlikely that these parallel lines will ever intersect... but I do look over from my side - and when I see you...I cannot forget. May 5, 2003 |