By Mysteriousone07
Date: 2003 Jun 02
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[[2003.06.02.21.11.6455]]

On the edge

Screaming, yelling
What do I do?
I can't take it any longer
I can't hear another word
Another sound
Will push me towards
The one thing
I hate the most
Death

I'm push to the very edge
Where do I turn?
Who do I turn for help?
Where do I go?
Where do I go for help?
Under appreciated
That's all I hear
That's all I feel
How can I take these
feeling out of me

My heart is wounded
I can't take much longer
I can't last anymore
That I think I could
I can't hold it in
I just can't anymore
It's so much pain
I feel and I take
I don't know what to
do with them
I keep it in
Just so they won't be
hurt or feel pity of me

What do I do to
ignore them behind me
Should I follow my instinct
blindly
Go the easy way out
Just so not to hear
What they have to say
About me
Just to take them
out of their misery
Just to make them more happy

How do I tell them
What I feel
deep within me
Scared they'll think
of me differently
Look at me funny
Wish there was a way
Maybe even just a day
For me to release
What I have kept
inside of me

Where do I start?
How do I begin?
Should I just hand
them my letter
To avoid interaction
To not see what their reaction
towards what I feel

I want to run away
Run away out of here
Out of this place
Where I could end it all
in an instant
Not think of what I do
And just cut through
my skin and let all
my blood out out of me
Lay there as I watch
Myself bleed
Bleed until my color
turns to blue
There where I reach
My own death
Death I did not
want to encounter this
early of my life
Death I could never
see coming

Tears fall down my eyes
Does anyone hear me?
Does anyone notice?
Does anyone try to
stop each drop from falling?
Tears of blood
Where I reach my death
The edge that I fell from
No one has saved me
From the death I have fallen from

Though I
Kneel and ask for God
"Help me,"
"Save me,"
Before I end my life
Gone on this earth
For all eternity
Love ones cry for me
Cry out of regret
Out of misery
But all was too late
That could never
bring me back
My soul has left my body
To go to heaven maybe

STOP!
I can't think like this
But I can't stop
FEELING like this
What do I do now?
Who do I turn to?
All I can turn to now
is ME
But I can't rely on myself
For I know what I can do
For I know I can't stop
myself once it is placed
upon my hand
Never turning back

That's how I end it all
This is WHEN I end everything