i see their scared little faces 
and i watch them as they can fit into the tinyest places.
but as time goes on they wont be afraid
and they wont fit into small places any more.
you always think to yourself what 
a butiful gift a child is to have until your
n the room having the child then you ask yourself why 
dose this have to cause so much pain.

i she is almost one 
the other is six
and the oldest is eight.

i love them dearly and they love me to
but i know that in time they will think that
i'm the worst person in the world.
their little bodies will grow into teens and they
will want to date and they will want to try things
and i will have to learn how to say no.

i am so happy to have them in my life even if it is
hard to keep them on the right track in life i 
know that they are glad to have me there with 
them too.

i love them and they love me i wonder what kind of joy 
they will bring to me in time but in time we will just 
have to wait and see.