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By Corinna Date: 2003 Jul 24 Comment on this Work [[2003.07.24.07.15.22489]] |
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Out with the new, In with the Old Where are you right now? That's a stupid question, I know. You're probably lying in your bed with her, holding her close. Doesn't she know that's my spot, my pillow under her head? Tell her to get up, make her get out of your bed. Tell her that I belong there, she had her chance before. Let her know you want me now, you don't want her anymore. I know that you must miss me; you can't say it's not true. Everything you told me can't be a lie, it's the control she has over you. I was warned in the beginning of how manipulative she can be. But you seemed to really care, so I didn't let it bother me. We had so much fun together; certain things make me reminisce. It's only been a month, but I still can feel your kiss. And I think about the way it used to drive you wild, Every time you would moan and twitch, I just had to smile. The way you used to call me over like a lonely little kid, Yet a tough man on the outside, but it was one of those things you did. I bet you didn't know that when we would go to sleep, I would whisper "I love you", low enough so you couldn't hear me. We were only together for 3 months, but it felt like I knew you for eternity. After all it was 4 months prior before you decided to be with me. We had been too shy and wrapped up in our game. I never had that with anyone else and it drove me insane. But I'm glad that I finally got you, even though you're no longer mine. If I had the power I would certainly turn back time. My insecurities got the best of me, they even pushed you away. I've gotten past the hardest part, but I still think about you every day. I keep wishing there was a way that I could bring you back, But I have to face reality, gotta live up to the facts. The fact is that you left me for someone you had before... You lied to me and played me and now you don't want me anymore. Yet you ask me if I'm okay, if we can still be friends. Tell me how much you care about me, if so then why did it end? Either you were still lying or just validating her control. She knows the power she has over you, but how come you don't know? I was nothing else but good to you, I even sacrificed my job. And I let you see me at my worst, when I was looking like a slob. You told me I was wonderful, beautiful and could have any man I wanna have. But if that is really the truth, then why can't I have you back? 7.10.03 Stacey |