By ladyinwaiting
Date: 2003 Aug 06
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Those fears again


I hurt today
when you pushed my hand away
as though you were appalled
when I touched you

like everything I thought
was real
isn't real at all

your kisses
were distant
as though they were not
meant for me

the words
I love you
came from your mouth
with pain
forced out
in a quiet mutter

I feel uneasy
not really sure
where to put my finger
as I follow a gut feeling
that I have felt many times

I grab this pain
in my stomach
unsure if I need
to vomit
or cry

I'm left wondering
what has happen here

have I just been dreaming
will I awake tomorrow
and still feel
the pain
in my stomach

or will it move
to my heart