By GoatgirlGeorge
Date: 2003 Aug 16
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Beautiful Angel

Ever get the feeling, when you do find a piece of yourself, you do start to find yourself, that you're not sure whether to like what you find?
I am in pain.
I can't tell anybody. And the thought of *ever* being with a man makes me want to retch.
It makes me crawl inside, it is so wrong for me...
I just want to be held, protected, loved...
just to hide safely in a bundle, curled up, finally safe and warm with her...
To have someone who doesn't try to stare down my shirt
But instead see what's in my heart
I want her to see
But I'm so afraid
She is the most beautiful eyed angel I have ever seen on earth
I don't want to...corrupt that beauty
It is an innocent love
But still I am guilty of loving
And to see the cold hard stares of the once broken people
Unnaccepted
Can't tell anyone
Already an outcast
Already been hurt too
When can I protect her
So beloved angel will never be hurt
Feel useless
Why couldn't it have been the end
So I could hold her in the darkest hour
Before she shone with light and
Then my beloved beautiful angel would no longer be earthbound
And we could all be free
But would I ever be free from loving that angel?
And...
I would surely die for her
Because I would be happy if
I knew I could bring more light to her life
I would surely die
For the beautiful angel
My only piece of heaven for me here on earth
I never want to see my angel hurt
And this piece of myself that I have found
Self destructive
For I would surely die for her
And all I know
Is that I love her