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By Liz Date: 2003 Aug 19 Comment on this Work [[2003.08.19.03.09.24970]] |
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He wants me in a box a neat litle package a collection of thoughts and feelings pertaining only to him. Any deviation from my normal schedule must mean I am sharing my affections with another. I move through life in a state just beneath fear a wariness about my every breath his accusations produce feelings of guilt though I have done nothing; I defend myself most valiantly from this knight I wanted to protect me. I rationalize the verbal barrage by saying he was hurt in the past he lost his mother his ex girlfriends were whores and I am his reward a sweet, good girl who will hold on fiercely and love only him. He has suffered this long to find ME. But what good is his prize if he worries day and night that there is a jack in the box who, when wound up with the power of his love will jump out and scream HA! I AM JUST LIKE THE REST!!!! |