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By Akash Date: 2003 Aug 20 Comment on this Work [[2003.08.20.03.03.26202]] |
| What is about love that makes me do things that I would normally consider insane. Sometimes the fact that she is out there, somewhere in the ocean of worldly crowd, even if not breathing next to me, makes me feel good, keeps me breathing and alive. What is that external entity or a range of entities that constitute my world that submit me to a beautiful thought or multiples of thoughts that engulfs my mind, stops the clock, as if time just stood still, a feeling that I was not even breathing all the time, and then a deep breath brings me back to reality, almost like a near death experience. And in this reality, there are questions like - why do we always want something that we cannot get? Answers come in the form of lectures or books or things that non-acceptance of what we have at the moment or with what we have to live with are the core issues of all pain. Submission to the present moment is the only answer to everlasting peace and joy - but my mind is a cunning animal, always working, sometimes overtime, to make me feel good, hurt, joyful, negative, angry, positive, hungry, and insecure. Somehow, my life enjoys this drama - because it feels alive, it feels that it has music in its every string - no matter which way it is played, it likes to dance with its every tune. It participates in this drama as an experienced actor who knows that if a line is forgotten, there is someone behind the curtain prompting it every now and then. |