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By Champagne Date: 2003 Sep 21 Comment on this Work [[2003.09.21.05.30.27585]] |
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I was so infatuated with him That I became The Geisha of his every desire. A selfless position for sure. He didn't ask me to do it - It was my own free choice. And I did it so well. My own needs and wants became second to his. I catered to him, babied him, and treated him like royalty regardless of how poorly he treated me. I obeyed on command eagerly waiting for his next wish. How disgusting. At first I didn't notice how I was degrading myself for him. But in time, the realization of what our relationship had become hit me between the eyes. And even them, I refused to do anything about it. He was so muscular so handsome so tall and so dark, An Adonis amongst men. He was so romantic, so sensual, so sexual, A Don Juan of humanity. I wasn't used to this. I didn't know how to handle him. I was prepared to do anything and everything to keep him in my life for as long as possible. And so I chose the Geisha approach. I think he began to despise me as much as I did myself. Let's face it - does any man really want a relationship with a lap dog ? So what woke me up? In his disgust for me - he eventually went too far in his lack of concern for my feelings. He battered and bruised my ego, until one day - I picked up my black and blue body, and went down to the Geisha Jobs Security Commission turned in my resignation with NO notice and quit. I still have my kimono though. I've saved it as a reminder or what not to do - and for those "playtime" dress-up parties with you. |