By ladyinwaiting
Date: 2003 Sep 29
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Sacrificial Offering

have you ever...
curled in the corner in fetal position
with a knot balled in your stomach
that eats at your soul
as your head spins
from the wine you've consumed
straight from the bottle
while you lick your wound
that is gaping
where your heart once beat

when you look in the mirror
you are unrecognizable
with your eyes swollen
and face chafed
from the tears you've shed

you await the sun rise
only to pull the cover over your head
in order to escape back
to the darkness
you are so familiar with

you feel the damage of rejection
and the pain that is so intense
you know your living in hell

unless you have ever experienced
this dungeon
you can never fully understand
the fear
that comes with giving
all of yourself to another
and the risk that is involved
nor can you understand
that giving all of yourself to another
means you risk losing all of you

but, if you fail to give all  
then you have more to lose

so, all i can do for this day
is offer you a slice of me
given in a little piece,
wishing you to place it
in safe keeping
until i entrust
you are not a starving dog
wishing to devour me

then and only then
shall i slice another piece of me
to offer you,
so you can place them together
until you have all of me
then i shall know
and trust the love you offer
and return it ten fold...