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By silly gurl Submitted by silly gurl Date: 2003 Dec 04 Comment on this Work [[2003.12.04.15.59.7348]] |
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Life seems so unreal When I analyze all that I feel Nothing is perfect I'm sure of that But it seems as though I have no control My soul feels raped and violated Thou' towards no one, have I hatred I'm the only one for me to blame Putting myself to whorish shame A few pricks I should have turned away Not let them fuck me to make me stay I hate this final stop most of all This can't be my life's call If I had stayed where I belonged Instead of trying to move on I wouldn't have hurt my soul's mate Ended up with one I'm starting to hate If I knew for sure my husband felt the same And that neither one would be angry and blame I'd take back a year of my life Before I became the wrong man's wife I'd say fuck everyone else! This is me, I'll choose for myself I'm going to reject this pathetic so called role So I can redeem my unsaintly soul Its not what others see with their eyes But living day to day with his seems like all lies How can I be a loving wife If I'm living the wrong life I don't care if the present will do And chances with others are few To make it through this way I'd have to take valium to stay At least by myself I'd find peace Other possibilities could increase Better than being treated like a child Getting yelled at, fucked, and defiled Nothings worse than submissing And act like you love the one that you're kissing All I feel is resentment and loathing Instead of love growing What a sack of bull shit lies To stay after he's lost his disguise Now I know he was the first to lie Making me miserable and cry He tricked me while we dated He thinks I'll stay here, serve him, be sedated When I was single and I thought I lost my mind I'd swear off men of all kind Then everything would return to normal Wouldn't have to act so formal My former me would return Then no more dizziness or burn I thought I would have to take a pill But once I left the man , I began again to feel Its not hate that fills me with heat But men that cut down my will, to defeat I need A softer man That can understand Not try to make me cower While they yell scream and tower There once was a gentle loving "silly boy" He wasn't trying to be coy He was more honest and deserving Made it hard to be perturbing At least when I sat by that "boys" side I know that he hadn't lied He hasn't raped my soul Looking for control or lusted only for a place To stick his dick with distaste If his love has survived all this time Why should I keep being fucked by a slime My husband needs a maid or another Needs me less, needs more his mother He tells me my ideas don't matter Some of my dreams are already begining to shatter To hell with what I feel and want He even says I'm a fucking cunt Yeah. Such loving words from my significant other All life he'll drain and start to smother He only thinks he loves me Cause he knows no one else will be As patient and ignore his bad Not leave when he screams and gets mad Its not like I think I'm being abused But that line has been confused He's stepped over the limit of what's accepted And he deserves getting rejected So if I left his ass In search of greener grass I would be supported No longer living life distorted |