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By punktearz Date: 2004 Jan 11 Comment on this Work [[2004.01.11.18.38.19011]] |
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So much has happened over the last year And I know we had our share of problems But I want to start over Everyone tells me to forget about the past For some unknown reason I can't I remember everything, the good and the bad But most of all I remember the fights The stupid things I said And all the things you never heard Because I was afraid to tell you But just know if I could I'd go back and fix everything Last year you were such a jerk to me And I know I deserved it all This year you seem so nice But do I deserve this I poured my heart into the last year Wondering what I should do I'm still unsure I actually thought it was fate That we were really meant to be But its not, is it Because you'll never feel the same way as I do I thought we had a lot in common But then I realized We don't know anything about each other I know I would take the time to really get to know you But can you say the same Would you really want to get to know me Could we really start over Can we seriously be friends But in the end I know I'll rune everything Just like always I see you everyday at school In the hallways, on my way to class, at lunch Everywhere I look, you're there I used to wish you'd come around the corner Just so I could get a glimpse of you But now for me, school is hell Everyday I wish not to see you Because it now pains me to look at you I promised myself I wouldn't let you hurt me again I broke that promise I'm letting you get to me But I don't want anyone to know The affect you have on me But it's to late Everyone can see You're dragging me into a world A world of darkness and pain I realized loving you hurts me Sometimes I feel This pain is going to kill me I cannot keep living in this world of pain No one can erase what I'm feeling But know that you're the only one Who makes me feel this way When you look my way Do you see right through me Like I'm not even there But when I look at you it's hard for me Because I'm looking at what I can never have I know what I want I know what I can't have And that's you What did I do to deserve all this pain I can't hid it anymore It's slowly killing me Pulling me farther into darkness And farther away from everything that matters Sometimes I actually believe That I have a chance with you But I know I never will You've made that clear I know we aren't meant to be But still I can't get over you And I have tried But time doesn't change anything It only makes things worse Is there such a thing as happily ever after Or is that just in fairytales I want to tell you everything That's been inside my head For so very long But when I try My mind hit's a roadblock Draws another blank When it comes to you I'm shy I get butterflies And I've waited for so damn long I guess I'll be waiting until time ends But don't worry, I don't need your sympathy All this pain I cannot bare My cries for help can no longer be heard I don't know what to say or do anymore This pain is driving me crazy But I can't pretend I don't feel the way I do Yet you say I have no self-confidence Well guess what, its true, I don't But I wonder why... All theses feelings are overwhelming Confusion and pain Depression and sadness Love and hatred Everything is so complicated, so overrated But this is reality There's no escape Time's flying past us Broken promises don't make it easier If you don't know what to say Maybe you should sit down and think hard Then just maybe you'll realize something You'll finally have something to say Or maybe you have realized something But you're afraid to tell me No one knows what they have Until they lose it forever One day you might realize what could've been But by then it might be to late When it comes to our final goodbye I'm not sure I will be able to let you go Will you remember me Or will I just be a forgotten memory I'm trying to find the right words To let you know exactly how I feel But for some reason I cant Just know that I'm sorry for everything Most of all, know that I did love you |