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By iLYd Date: 2004 Jan 25 Comment on this Work [[2004.01.25.21.23.10539]] |
| You had asked why I keeping wanting something that I can not have. My answer to you, is that you have and are giving me what I need. Soulful conversation, the act of caring, and the occasional fling, what else could I want? My heart is in tack, after careful consideration of our conversation on Wednesday, I now know why God didn't pick someone like you for me. You love them and leave them, have cake and eat it too, done nothing wrong philosophy is something even I don't want in my life. Your everything I want, but unfortunately your not what I really need. You make my heart skip, but would eventually rip it out. You are caring and sweet, but eventually that would stop. You make me happy in a world that is imaginary and that is the place I like to be in when I'm with you. The world stops and alittle part of me gets to feel better, if for only a little while. I wasn't totally honest when I said I was unhappy, I am happy to some degree, I am just not in love, in which experts explains are the reasons why I have been doing what I have been doing. I don't know what your excuses are, but something is not quite right with you either. Would we be good together, who knows. Would or could you be true to one person, who knows. I am okay with the way things are now. I really wanted more than I actually realized I could handle, but after careful thinking and consideration of all matters, you are right, responsibility is the key of where my life should be at this moment. I will treasure our friendly friendship and you know the truly remarkable thing about our friendship, is that I can love you and I don't have to cook,clean or trade paint with you. Though the latter would be nice. Smile ,life rocks, I am glad you are in mine, no matter what the circumstances. You make me happy in the most usual ways. Thank you! |