By CordovaGirl
Date: 2004 Mar 26
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Consulting the Ceiling

I lie awake thinking...
is this the best for me.

Maybe the arms of another
would hold satisfaction
to my fascination
of another love,
another life.

The Something I long for
in later years
might become the Something I fear
in later years,
waking up every alarm-buzzed AM
to another Groundhog Day
but...
I think I might relish the reruns
of a lifetime syndication
with you.
Something I longed for
in dream-boat sleepovers
of "Tigerbeat" weddings
when I was supposed to want this,
to dream this,
even on Career Day
or College Visitation Day
when love wasn't encouraged on a brochure.

Maybe the sudden transition
from Bubblegum pink
to Fire-engine Red
is why I'm lying awake
consulting the ceiling for advice
as the brochure hurriedly yells RUN
and the Bubblegum quietly whispers,

stay.