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By Corinna Date: 2004 Jun 30 Comment on this Work [[2004.06.30.17.20.13980]] |
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Well, I went with my gut but it seems that originally my gut had been sending me mixed signals, kind of like you. Oh what a fool I am! You see, I've been with players, I've been around players and I know all about their games. But yet I think I totally put blinders on in the beginning with you. All the lines you fed me were just that, lines. But they were such kind words and they made me feel so good! But my lack of self worth and self confidence made me fall for them. The first two weeks you wined me, you dined me, we went to clubs together and you even introduced me to your parents. I think that's what had me fooled. I knew or at least thought I knew, that a player doesn't bring their "prey" around their family, maybe friends, but not family. Because usually there is another girl/guy waiting in the wings. But I guess maybe your original intentions were to play me, but then you started to feel something and maybe after a week or so of that you realized that you just couldn't get out of the game. I don't know and I never will. But I had to go with my gut when things started getting shady so I decided to have "the talk". And boy did you lay it on thick! "I really like you" "I was scared you were going to leave me". Man that made me feel good. You're pretty smooth. But not smooth enough! Three days later on our last talk you tried the same thing, but it seems to me that you didn't pre-meditate your lies well enough because you had me so suspicious. And I'm glad you did because that's when I found out the truth. You only wanted me to stick around because you wanted to have your cake and eat it too. I was the fool who you can bring home to momma, show off to your friends and who would come to your beckon call, meanwhile you had someone else, maybe 2 or 3 more, on the side too. It's a shame too because you are a nice guy deep inside, but the game has gotten the best of you. And I let you got the best of me. I wanted to play you back so bad, but why stoop to your level? You probably didn't even see me when I caught you. I wasn't going to let you know that I saw you, but I couldn't hold it in anymore and I did. The sad part is that I was hoping that you really did like me as much as you said and that you really did want to keep me around, but for other reasons. I also hoped that you would realize what you lost when you lost it. But it's time for me to get real! You aren't worth the time and energy. You're a player and you will always be a player. I hope you see me out some night and you want me REAL bad. And I hope it kills you when you realize that you can't have me anymore. You lost out on a really good thing buddy! I will end with this... I did have a lot of fun with you and it was great for a while, but trust is something that shouldn't be messed and you totally killed mine. I thought about sticking around anyway, but why make myself look like a fool, especially when I know I'm being played? So, goodbye stinky. I hope life treats you well, for the most part. But other than that I hope the game gets you real bad. I hope it all backfires on you and you lose hard core! And guess what, you WILL miss me tomorrow Asshole! 06.30.04 |