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By courtney Date: 2004 Nov 16 Comment on this Work [[2004.11.16.22.54.26548]] |
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'Hopelessly Hopeful' If you're hopelessly hopeful, you've made more 'mistakes' then you can count. You've given more chances then you've been given. You've found more security in your own arms than the men you held close. Our 'mistakes' are all different-ours and ours alone. The only relation is heartbreak. My 'mistakes' will never be erased. Some were small, but some have been branded into me for a lifetime. I remember the first. The first of so many things. He was younger, I was searching for someone, anyone, to tell me I was beautiful. He touched my face the first time we kissed. I can still remember what I wore ' almost 10 years ago, and I can still remember the way the air smelled that night. He was the first to invade me, the first one I wrote about, the first one to break me. After him there were many. I chewed through them in starvation-searching for the taste to satisfy my hunger. But I was always the one devoured, spit out like a bitter aftertaste. Through the torment and self-doubt, all the years of being the one left to sort through the mess-I've learned lessons. Don't ever stay just to have someone. If your heart doesn't do cartwheels, he's not the one. The one does exist-I still believe that there's a lid for every pot, no matter how many times the pot's been used. The saying 'If you love them let them go, if they come back, they're yours', try it sometime. If they don't come back, their loss. In the end it pays to admit your 'mistakes'. Tuck them away underneath , keep them close enough to remind, but far away enough to forget. Their really are no mistakes-every ship sets sail for a reason'. |