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By ~Harem~ Date: 2004 Dec 02 Comment on this Work [[2004.12.02.09.23.3408]] |
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I couldn't see clearly, but I could hear all the signs. That sound that blasted in my ears, echoed former memories of my fears. I knew what it would lead to, for I had been down that road before. Your faraway look, your disregard for my feelings, your intolerance of my every word, they all sent a chilling message that could not be ignored. The time was right, and the clock struck zero, and by mornings light - You had left the moorings of our fated relationship once more. It had become the only thing that I could count on, and depend upon; and that was your sudden departures. And oh, the Midnight Vigils, where my heart searched and searched to find the reasons why and the blame thereof. Sleep would allude me, and my eyes were empty wells. Tossing and tearing at sheets which once held us close in the night, were now burdens to push and pull in a slumberless nightmare of distorted dreams. Lighting the candles of anguish, my vigils would last for days, until the stabbing, wrenching pain of loosing you, would finally subside to a bearable ache. A repetitive pattern this was, until one day when you were gone too long, and I had too much time to heal, and think, and grow - That I realized that I no longer had to hear the blast of fog horns, nor groan in all night vigils. And just yesterday, the phone rang, and it was you. Throwing a loaded question at me - you said, "honey didn't we used to be so good together ?" After prolonged silence on my part, I finally retorted - "who is this ?" and then hung up. You never called back. ` |