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By Violet Date: 2005 Jan 11 Comment on this Work [[2005.01.11.18.04.638]] |
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i love you more today than i loved you on our wedding day or the night you proposed or the night you offered to drive two hours just to hug me. i look at you, and i see where i came from and where i am going. you helped me grow into the woman i am. for better or for worse i am yours. but lately i don't know how to calm my feelings. each time we kiss, each time you hold me... the desire to have a family comes screeching to the front of my mind. i am frantically searching for new distractions every day. my atempts are feeble, because everyday that i love you more, i want it more. you don't want to hear about it. you can't stand the fact that i am not completely happy. i don't want to convince you. i want you to wake up and want it too. in the meantime, please know that it aches. i can literally feel an emptiness in the place i imagine my uterus to be. my arms feel light where the weight of a sleeping infant should be. is it so wrong to want to see what our love can create? |