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By darwin Date: 2005 Jun 28 Comment on this Work [[2005.06.28.17.06.11910]] |
| today is not the day to make a great mind blowing decision. today isn't the day to step into the rain and feel it as it comes down. today isn't a day to walk down a street and feel sexy as my hips sway side to side. maybe one day i'll be someone of great intellect and prowess. maybe one day i'll be a great mind of the century. maybe one day i'll be a poet laureate. but today i want to crawl, crawl away and remember infancy in the dependancy i had on love. maybe it's not so different. maybe it's just human nature to want to find acceptance in those that nuture us. from womb to mother to babysitter to boyfriend to job. we're constantly nutured, and kept. kept alive by the choices we make. the loves that we seek. and the choices that inevitably decide our fate. no looking glass to turn to, and see what decision might have decided a different fate. to see if we would have become rich and wealthy and deliriously popular. but we all have our demons. would i want to be a demon with a humble home and trappings. with the used furniture and bargain center finds. maybe that chair someone placed on a corner. or do i want to the be person who was honest with herself, and knew that she made the right choices. right choices for herself. that i lived and loved. that i loved honestly and with abandon. not just a man, but my life, and myself. |