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By angieubaldo Date: 2005 Jul 25 Comment on this Work [[2005.07.25.18.21.790]] |
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It is late and I cannot sleep. My mind is wondering, and I ate too much ice cream. I think about the man waiting for me in the bed. My kind, sweet husband that snores too loud for my ear plugs. I came out here to let him get some rest, I always poke him all night long in an attempt to get him to stop. He works all day, and comes home to a pregnant wife with round the clock PMS. Sometimes, I think he is too kind to me, he loves me even though, I am bratty. He gives me whatever I want, whatever I need, even when I don't realize it. I wonder what I ever did to deserve love like this. The parade of losers before him, no one compares. Sometimes I think that we are so different from each other, that we belong with different people, and then as I watch him rub cocoa butter on my swollen belly, I realize I could not have chosen a better mate. God truly did send me an angel in disguise. He is kind to me, so stoic, he puts his emotions on the back burner, while I explode. Even when he doesn't understand why I am upset, he comes next to me and run his fingers thru my hair until I calm down, and he will holds me while I cry for no reason. After we argue, he is the first to say sorry, just to get us talking again. When I am down, and feel fat, he tells me how beautiful I am, even though I feel like my body is expanding more by the day. He knows me more, than any other man, has ever known me before. And yet he loves me. Even though sometimes I feel like I don't deserve it, even when I push him away, he loves me, he accepts me for being a shell of a woman. When I question myself, life, us, he provides all the answers. He asks me how it is that no man ever got to me, and I say I don't know. I wonder it how it is in a world of losers, I found someone so wonderfully odd and so perfect for me. As he plays his star wars video games, I watch him and realize that he is more perfect for me then he or I will ever comprehend. And as I sit here, I know there is no other place I belong, there is no other man I know that could love me like he does. I feel so grateful, to have found someone who I could love without reservation, someone I can trust with my heart. I guess its time to go pop in the earplugs and try to get some rest, or at least to lay next to the man who finally tamed my wild heart..... |