By Ali
Date: 2005 Aug 13
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Years

You were the life
I didn't know I was losing,
The song that I had sung too long
(But the song had outgrown me).
I didn't know (I wouldn't know)
That you were leaving...
And then you were gone.
Three years--almost four--
And I still cringe
At all of my supposed mistakes--
The different takes on a single angle,
Of which I was seemingly aware, and yet
Forgetful of.  
I loved without knowing,
And you knew without loving--
But there was nothing without losing,
And all your words and silences, in collusion,
Have led me here--remembering.
There are days when I miss you,
But that paining comfort is always followed
By a wary echo of 'why'.
I deserved better than you,
But that doesn't mean that I didn't love you
For who you were,
I just can't forgive you
For who you've been.