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By callaphair Date: 2005 Sep 16 Comment on this Work [[2005.09.16.08.18.23569]] |
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For whom do I act? Is it not for others? Is it not for you? For I know I am not who I appear. How can I possibly show you who I am? How can I lift my masks and portray to you my vulnerable self when your savage words cleave at my heart and your fierce tongue vitiates my being? Why should my distress stem from your voice? Why should I share my soul with one who will tarnish it? If you can tell me why the malicious sting of evil penetrates my heart when you speak; If you can tell me why you forged a friendship; If you can explain to me how a powerful bond can be broken in such short time, Then I will speak to you of love. I will tell you of kindness. I will utter examples of benevolent attributes of devotion to you. I will hint corners of my spirit to you, and I may render a flint of affection towards you. (Yet you will never uncover who I truly am, for I will never confide in you again. I have been scorned and cannot forgive you. With that, I am angered. At one time I wanted to be able to confide in you. For a time I wanted to preserve our engagement, But I have realized that this is incapable of occurring.) So I ask of you: Do not place bitterness upon me. Do not ask me to own your grievances. Do not let puerile attitudes corrupt our last few moments together. I ask for you to rejoice with me in our last paragraph of this chapter in our lives. I ask for you to befriend me once again. I ask again to put our grievances aside and celebrate the enjoyment of commencements and to let the dawn of a new day breathe life into your heart and create a sensation of rejuvenation in our relationship. Help me to turn over these circumstances and begin a new page in my life. This I ask of you as a companion. This I desire of you as a friend. |