By spiritwic
Date: 2005 Oct 05
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Untitled 10-05-05

I read my old journals
the other day
and every other page was
got drunk again
got laid again
I'm fat again
I'm pathetic again

and then I made a list
of all the guys from
18 to 31
guys I screwed
guys I fucked
guys I sucked
but never made love
not to any of them

they were too many to count
along with the declarations
of change
too many to count

and the shame
and the cutting
and the pills
all just add to the
defamation of my character

but don't judge a book by its cover
you have to read the layers
to find the truth

it's too bad men don't read instructions
and love doesn't come with directions
you wouldn't want a girl like me anyway.