By corinna
Date: 2005 Oct 13
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[[2005.10.13.21.28.1400]]

Finding

I'm finding that I don't need you
So it's good that you went away
Things are finally going good for me
Everything seems to be falling into place

I still don't know where things went wrong
But maybe I really don't care anymore
I wasted too much energy trying to impress you
And now I look back and I wonder what for

Because I look at you sometimes
and I'm grateful you did me that favor
Of course I get sad when I think of our times together
But those are just memories to look back on later

You pushed me to the edge of hating you
You live inside your little box of contradictions
And it makes me so sick to my stomach
Yet it's hard to fight this addiction.

Because I find myself still wanting to call
And most times I tend to follow through
But it's only feeding into your satisfaction
When I start giving in to you.

You didn't want me for your girlfriend
Yet you held a relationship with me
You knew you were leading me on
But you couldn't decide what you wanted to be.

You figured you'd keep me around
Because it was easier than having to commit
But once again you got scared of your own feelings
And decided it was time to call it quits.

Well now you're miserable whenever I see you
And I find myself partially pleased
Because you seemed so much happier before
When you were hanging out with me.

Somehow, I don't think this is the end
We still haven't said our last goodbye
We didn't break the lines of contact
I don't think we could if we tried.

I don't know why you're so bitter and miserable
And of course I don't like to see you hurt
Then again, you didn't care how I felt
So whatever it is, you're getting what you deserve.

But I'm finding I don't need you anymore
And it's good that you're gone
Everything is falling into place for me now
And it's so much easier to move on.

03.28.05