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By Star of David Date: 2005 Nov 02 Comment on this Work [[2005.11.02.22.09.2903]] |
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I feel like hell. The storm clouds are slowly gathering. It's going to rain down soon and that's what I want right now. I want it to rain so hard that it drowns me in sorrow for always. I haven't seen you smile in forever and I am starting to forget your lips, your taste, the exact scent of the nape of your neck and the way your hair is just so. I want to drive you mad again and fall in love again and hold you close again. I need to hear our music and be held in your arms so I don't forget what it feels like to be loved by you. I need you to come back so I remember again and then leave if you must. But I don't want to forget and keeping our memory alive is hard to do alone when I haven't held you in so long. I want to ruin you and shock you with my loving. I want to take you to the thin line between love and hate which everyone says exists and stay there for a while, just you and me. I feel like violence. And that's just another word for how desperately I love you. (October 28, 2005) |