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By Violet Date: 2005 Dec 06 Comment on this Work [[2005.12.06.04.33.4489]] |
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i sorted through the mail and among catalogs and bills was a wedding announcement from you so artful and modern in postcard form, the front showed only your fiancee's face and the profile of the top half of your head (lovingly buried in her hair) still i knew you and i knew what it was before i flipped it over i am a grown woman with a husband i love more dearly than life and yet i felt the wind knocked out of me did you feel this way when i married? why does it hurt ? we moved past each other so long ago i know we never officially dated but you were my best friend and my heart's only desire for so long the first man i ever connected with you made me feel like a lady each and every time you took me to a dance or to the beach you treated me like a rare glittering jewel i adored you you told me once that even though you had been attracted to me and you thought i was beautiful like a young elizabeth taylor and even though we were such good friends (friends that danced and hugged and talked 'til the early morning hours) you couldn't date me because we were too different to ever be married that was hard but i think the fact that you found a woman who is perfect for you that you want to be with for the rest of your life is harder because it reminds me that i wasn't good enough but she is (she must be truly amazing) my pride is nicked by your lovely postcard i hope you are happy because i am it's only once in a great while that i wonder what could have been but the fact that we never gave it a try is not my mistake to regret maybe now i can finally close this chapter |