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By iLYd Date: 2006 Feb 24 Comment on this Work [[2006.02.24.20.00.27425]] |
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can not have it's hard for me to understand this we do live in one world used to think we lived in different worlds not so now... we love we care I feel alive with you I feel the reasons in why you say you can not be with me the feelings of disappointment it would cause the feelings of hurt the feelings of will they stop loving me? will they hate me? will they take sides? lose respect? of course these are all my thoughts too, didn't you think I would also feel all of the above? Wake up, all of this is very real to me too! but I was willing to risk all of this for YOU willing to risk the hatred, though it would not last, and willing to sacifice, predominantly everything (can write this word, hard time saying it) what I don't understand is the reason why you show me ,in all the ways you do, how much you love me then say I can not have what I need... risk -- if willing to take it, must go both ways our friendship means so, so much to me, this will always be but I fell in love with you and was willing to risk it ALL and the risk you would take , well -- I would not want to be the cause of such disaster, that would, you think, would result in our union, I just don't know if the love you have for me would ever over come the initial pain and my love for you, I would like to think it would last and would survive such struggle, but knowing that you have such doubts about not taking this chance from the beginning ,for these reasons, should make me think twice, but remember, I'm the one willing to take a chance and have truly weighed my feelings of our union... You mention memories created, yes, not to be forgotten, friendship, yes, always, but I found something in you I want, I NEED, and it's just YOU...Perhaps if you felt the risk was worth it, then we would have a better chance of starting a life together. In ten years when I see you walking down the street, and we stop, talk, smile and we kindly wave as we part, we'll both know that deep down, we both are saying what if? I don't want to live this scenario. I just wanta be the one walking down the street beside you in ten years... iLYd |