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By blakey Date: 2006 Mar 07 Comment on this Work [[2006.03.07.12.12.10751]] |
| I guess I sort of understand now. You had to divorce both of us. I was part of your past that you needed to break free from. There really wasn't any way for you to begin your new life with all of the baggage you were carrying around; domestic or vacation. I don't regret synchronizing my heartbeat with yours, I guess I just wasn't prepared to stand alone so suddenly (I say suddenly even though I ignored all of the signs that are so blatant now). I hope you are patient with me as I regain my strength. I suppose the odd part is, like a phantom limb, you were no longer there and yet I still felt your presence. Only through courage did you finally open my eyes so I could see that you have been gone for quite some time. Standing alone after all this time will require a crutch. I have always depended on you for a sympathetic ear, now I must lean on you until I feel strong enough to stand alone. It won't take long, I promise. I'm a fast healer. Over time, my gait will return to normal, with no outwardly sign of past injury. Only internally will I occasionally wince upon the sound of certain songs, sights and smells. Things we shared together - ours forever - like a scar that's invisible to everyone except me. |