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By musicalduck Date: 2006 May 15 Comment on this Work [[2006.05.15.23.16.21041]] |
| I can't remember the last time I was sitting in bed crying my eyes out. It was probably when my life was going wrong, and I had nothing to do but cry. But now, I have no reason to cry. I've got it all. All but you. Well, I have you but I choose not to take you. You in all your glory. I've got these plans for you, for us. Silly thing to think about. I'm so young, but I made plans for us. I was never one of those girls who planned out her life. I didn't think about my wedding or pick names for my kids, but I actually planned for us. Not our wedding or what our children were like, but I had the courage to imagine us living together. When have I ever done that? So I'm sitting here crying why? Wishing I had a drink in my hand so that maybe it'd make me happy enough to laugh, or tired enough to sleep. I'm crying because I've got you right where I want you, but I for some reason won't allow myself to have you. |