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By dragonflydancer Date: 2006 Jun 22 Comment on this Work [[2006.06.22.01.54.20788]] |
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Maybe it's the heat... One of those days that you don't want to move from right where you are, you're enjoying the small room with the only AC in order to have some comfort in your completely unproductive day. So you spend your day holed up, unmoving and stagnant for a day. The heat oppressive as you fight to get a breath during those hot hours. Hours that pass filled with nothing. Inactivity closing in on your body and soul like the walls out of some Indiana Jones movie... closing in around you, boredom threatening to smother you. You long for fresh air, and going outside doesn't help. It's then that you realize this claustrophobia is not a physical state for you, it's an emotional one. When all thoughts and feelings become oppressive and bear down on your soul. You're struggling to get out of this negative space, and yet reaching out and grabbing at anything to pull yourself up and out of this dark pit. But the darkness and tight spaces get closer and closer, like you're locked in a very small closet filled with only your thoughts, fears, and emotions. A verbal hand is extended, asking how you are... and after trying to explain it to your brave knight, they spur their horse in the other direction riding off into the sunset without you, leaving you standing in your hole, still desperately trying to save yourself. If I could just find the right words to explain this feeling, will you come back on your horse and help save me from the evil dragon, claustrophobia...? |